A poet who appeared on “The Great American Baking Show” wrote a heartbreaking final diary entry about how she felt “such clarity” before she committed suicide, after first saying “goodbye to my body” and making love one last time to her husband.
Molly Brodak, who appeared on the ABC series in 2019, detailed her final moments before her death on March 8, 2020, after being diagnosed with a brain tumor.
“I took a bath, I said goodbye to my body,” the 39-year-old poet wrote in a final entry shared by the Los Angeles Times.
“We ate grilled halloumi, made love after dinner, and watched our favorite things on TV.
“I feel like I can see everything so clearly this morning,” Brodak wrote. “I’ve been faking it my whole life.”
Her apparent clarity and calm did nothing to help her distraught husband, Blake Butler, who shared diary entries from “Molly,” a book about the overwhelming trauma of losing a loved one to suicide.
In it, he recalled finding his wife’s body after returning home from a run and seeing a suicide note taped to the door of their home in Atlanta, Georgia.
The poet appeared on Season 3 of ABC’s “The Great American Baking Show” in 2019. Disney poet Molly Brodak wrote a heartbreaking last diary entry before she died at age 39. Blake Butler
“The way she made sure I was the one to go get her body was another kind of violence in itself,” Butler writes in the book, taken from the LA Times.
When Brodak appeared on Season 3 of “The Great American Baking Show” in 2019, the same year she started her home baking business, she was the nicest contestant, according to author Joseph Earp, who wrote a touching tribute after her death.
“They are all very humble and pleasant to each other, but Brodak shows what I see as a unique, flickering enjoyment of the chaos unfolding around him: the smiling hosts, the artificial injection of high stakes,” he wrote.
Her husband, Blake Butler, has published a book about her life simply titled “Molly.” Blake Butler/X said she found Brodak’s body after returning home from a run and seeing a suicide note taped to the front door. Blake Butler
However, the Detroit-born poet had long “struggled with mental illness and a life of trauma,” her husband said.
That included a troubled childhood, with his father, Joseph Brodak, first sent to prison for a series of bank robberies in 1994, when Brodak was just 13, and arrested for more in 2009.
“Molly was worried, that much was clear,” her husband writes of her struggle with mental illness, which was evident even when they met in 2010, a year before she moved to Atlanta in 2011 to participate in a fellowship at the Emory University, where he would later teach.
Brodak was just 13 years old when his father was arrested for committing a series of bank robberies.kookiehouse/Instagram
“Death always seemed to be on Molly’s mind,” Butler writes, and he says she warned him when they moved in together: “If there was ever a gun in this house, I would end up using it on myself.”
It is unclear how Brodak committed suicide. She left several unpublished poems, which her husband plans to share posthumously.
If you are having suicidal thoughts, you can call the 24/7 National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 988 or visit Suicide PreventionLifeline.org.
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